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I didn’t get the job.

Both the head of human resources and my volunteer manager (who was part of the interview board) said that I interviewed very well, that I was a very strong candidate, but that there were eighty applicants and only one job.

The person who got it was also an internal candidate (very kind of them to consider me an internal candidate, when I am only a volunteer). And I would wager large amounts of money I don’t have that said person doesn’t have a master’s degree, and therefore can be paid less.

I owe a huge debt of gratitude to Clue for the chat that kept me from breaking into the ugly sobs at the volunteer job. (There aren’t words to describe how grateful I am, dearling.) I owe all of you who have supported me and encouraged me this far so, so much.

I feel caught in a trap. There are no real entry-level librarian jobs anymore; they all want the MLIS and two to three years’ experience, minimum, or they expect you to work part-time fifteen to twenty hours a week, evenings and weekends (and thereby putting your family responsibilities or your friends second). So you apply for the paraprofessional jobs, thinking that you can get SOME library experience that way, only to be beaten out by a candidate with a high school diploma or a bachelor’s degree because they’re less of a drain on the bottom line.

It makes you want to go work retail, seriously. Except you don’t make enough money in retail to pay your student loans, much less help with the OTHER family bills.

There’s no good answer. None at all.

And your self-worth continues to hemorrhage.




WSJ reports Yahoo board has approved a $1.1 billion deal — in cash — to purchase Tumblr. 

There it is.

Sooooooooo, I’m not saying we need an exit strategy. Just, given Yahoo’s spectacular track record, um. What’s our exit strategy? 

My brain can’t get around this - I cannot for the life of me see how Yahoo can benefit from this .. it just doesn’t make sense to me.

Having said that, if I had a wildly popular website, and a huge name in digital media came to me and offered me THAT MANY fat bags of cash, I would be hard pressed to say no, myself..

So, exit strategies. Anyone got any good ideas?

(Source: joshsternberg)

This is my houndstooth lunchbag.

I got my master’s degree from a university where houndstooth is a Really Big Deal. When I went back to my old job last summer, as a recent graduate I felt obligated to buy this lunchbag.

Obligated, ha - I was so excited. Unfortunately, I couldn’t make the crappy commute + poor working conditions + crappy benefits stick, and I left … I was so sure that I would find something closer to home in short order.

That was almost ten months ago.

It’s possible that I could hear back from the interviewing panel as early as this afternoon. I am planning to volunteer there this afternoon. I don’t know if my presence will help at all, but I did tell my volunteer supervisor that I’d do a couple hours every day while the wee dogbutt is home from puppy camp, and every day includes today, so. I can’t imagine that showing the interviewers that I honor my commitments, especially to their department, is a bad thing.

I’m not a religious woman, but I’ve spent a lot of time praying this week. I need to be able to meet my obligations, monetarily and committee-wise, both of which require having the money to write checks and afford travel. But fundamentally, I need to be in a library, doing library work. Collaborating with like-minded people to enrich lives and expand minds. And if I can do this for the people in my community, so much the better.

god, please.


Jesus Hecubus Christ on a Sparkly Pink Pony, Chris, what ARE you trying to do to my blood pressure wearing those bracers and that red shirt and wit your goddamned HANDS, man?!  Yer killin me!  I’m ded now, completely ded, I am an ex-cluegirl, and it’s all on YOU!

I read this on my phone while at the volunteer job, and I laughed out loud in the middle of the common work area. If it wasn’t the “Jesus Hecubus Christ”, it was the idea of the sparkly pink pony.

But I totally agree about the hands and the shirt and the ‘spenders.

It is past time for 2013 to stop being such a goddamned shitheap to all of us.

One of my aunts just called to “let us know” that she just got out of breast cancer surgery. They removed tumor and three lymph nodes. Her care team thinks they got it all.

Self-exams, darlings. Please do them. I have had too goddamn many of these phone calls, and I don’t want to lose anybody else if it can be at all prevented by early detection.

'Iron Man 3' to pass the $1-billion milestone

An Open Letter to MarvelDisney:

This film has made $962.2 million. It’s still out worldwide. Soldier Boy hasn’t seen it yet. It is going to make more money, and there is no reason not to think it’s easily got another 40 million left in the tank.

Congratulations, Marvel Studios. Congratulations, Shane Black. Congratulations, Robert, Gwyneth, Don, Sir Ben, Guy, and everyone who had a part in bringing this amazing film to us.

And I realize that that encompasses a LOT of people. The director, the producers, the actors, yes. But also the casting team, the costumers, the Dolby techs, the VFX guys, the craft services people. Hundreds of people’s long hours went into this film, all of them deserve a fair recompense.

These films, these stories of superheroes.. they’re character-driven. You’re in the theater to watch Tony Stark mudwrestle with his demons. In this current cast of Avengers, you have found the people who SELL these characters to the public. You’ve found no-better person to play the eccentric tycoon who reinvents himself than the man who has intimate knowledge of what it’s like to rebuild yourself again and again. You’ve found someone who has a heart of gold to play “not a perfect soldier, but a good man”. And don’t get me started on the delightful Clark Gregg, as I seem to get something in my eye every time I consider that Agent Phil Coulson is alive to gripe about someone touching his car.

MarvelDisney, if you can afford to pay Paramount $90 million dollars for a film it didn’t even have the first part in making … surely, surely you can afford to make sure your actors are allowed to share in the bounty that their talent, their sixteen-hour-days, their weeks on the worldwide press junket have reaped for you.






People being angry about ~dem gays~ on Target’s Facebook.

I just want to give my two cents on this and tell you a story.

A couple weeks ago, I was hired at Target. I have a job at Target. Not a big deal right?

It is a big deal because i’m a transman

It doesn’t take a genius to conclude that it’s hard for me, my brothers, and sisters to get a job. There are legal restraints regarding the job and if you don’t pass, it’s hard to be taken seriously at a job interview.

Right on the application, it asks what your preferred name is. It also asks if there is anything that target should know. I put the fact that I am a transman, expecting not to get a call because usually when you put that down, people will throw out the application. I got TWO interviews.

At the interview, they asked me about it. I told them I am on hormones and they told me that they didn’t care. Not in the sense that they don’t emotionally care, but that it didn’t matter. I was male and that’s all that mattered. They also told me that they give sex same couples benefits in states that do not recognize them as a married couple.

At my job orientation, I was not misgendered once. Even my supervisors who weren’t sure of my gender avoided pronoun use, which I found only happens when you’ve had pronoun training. They gave me a name tag with my preferred name and didn’t ask questions. I felt safe and respected, which is huge for a trans* person.

TLDR: Target is amazing not just for the LGB, but also the T. Shop there for the rest of your life.

Target just got another reason in my list of them to give them my business. And they’re opening a store near me. Good.

I have no problem continuing to give all not-my-money to Target.

The rest of the market can feel free to STEP UP ANYTIME.

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